Monday, 29 December 2008

The Holiday Break

The Holidays fell midweek this year which in my humble opinion made it feel a bit awkward. I don't know why it just felt strange breaking up on Wednesday (yes me the martyr worked until Christmas eve lol) Now I'm building up to Wednesday and clients are asking me to work here and there which I am all excited about (yeah work) and I know I am gonna be as useful as a bucket of molten horse shit on Thursday!

I haven't forgotten you guys either by the way after saying I would be back and not blogging for six days!!! I had 11 to feed on Christmas day and I cooked yes 11 and it was originally gonna be 18 so I cooked it was awesome (yes I am brilliant ) and then we retired to my Uncle's to get merrily drunk over the course of the evening which led to me waking at theirs chilling to lunchtime and getting home being knackered from feeding the masses and drinking heavily so I slept for a day and a night which led to Sunday where I ate most of the leftover cheese chilled with some dvd's and had some me time...

Boy was it needed. This morning I have been to see four clients and I am off again until Friday so nothing but alcohol and chill between now and the New Year

So party people

Party like its 2009



Tuesday, 23 December 2008

Good Morning World

Hey there, how's it going? So what are we all doing during this festive season? Me I have the family coming round for a meal when I say the family not all of them just 11 of them. 2 of them vegetarians, 1 a really picky eater and me that can eat for england!

It's going to be interesting, I am know looking forward to it, I haven't been for a while but I am now....

As for gifts not a bloody one yet!

maybe I'll start today, maybe I'll get them all tomorrow? Either way I'll get them.

An while I am on here, I had a comment from Tanya aka NetChick this morning you really should get over there and see her......

No don't you close this page,

go on back to the link...

see its here in case you missed it!

L out

Monday, 22 December 2008

A time of change

So Yule has come and gone and it is a time of change the night leaves us and the day returns...

Which is makes what I found in the blogosphere tonight very poignant I found out I am losing a friend hopefully not for long the long standing Michele Agnew who ran the awesome meet n greet to name but one of her interesting posts is taking a sabbatical and one of the many bloggers I met Tanya aka NetChick has fortunately taken over the gauntlet as I met many dear blogger friends here they may not know they are friends but in their own special way they helped to name but a few

miss britt

and so on and so on the list is endless you guys know who you are I was helped through a breakup a nervous breakdown the diagnosis of Bipolar and the steps towards recovery and realising michele is going has made me aware that I fell off the bloggin band wagon when I needed it most I have promised I will back back numerous times well my new years resolution is to come back.......

Stay tuned

Sunday, 16 November 2008

Sunday Steal.........

Wow, I'm getting lazy. I came across this blog here liked it followed it to its source here and stole it. Why? because I feel like blogging but dunno bout what. Sue me! Oh just before you do it ooriginally came from here This Women's Work go say hello at least.

1. Do you like blue cheese salad dressing?

I love it Mmmmm (can't have it at mo damn diet)

2. Favorite late night snack?

King Prawn curry

3. Do you own a gun?

I live in the U.K.

4. What’s your favorite drink at Starbucks or other specialty coffee shop?

De-caff Latte or Green Tea

5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?

Nah unless, its to see my shrink

6. What do you think of hot dogs?

I like em even though they are full of knuckles and balls and eyelids!

7. Favorite Christmas song?

Christians freezing by an open fire...
Jack Frost nipping at their toes...
Yule tide carols being sung by a choir
And we're dressed up not just for show..
All us pagans know the Yule log and some misletoe
Helps to make our Solstice bright
Like tiny tots with their eyes all aglow
We'll find it hard to sleep tonight!
We know the Sun is on His way
He's bringing warmnth and light
For all of Spring to stay
And every Christian child is gonna cry
They see that reindeer really don't know how to fly...
And so I'm offering this simple phrase
So many years it has rung true...
Although its been said,
many times many ways...
Merry Solstice to you.
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?

9. Can you do push-ups?

yep, only since I started my fitness regime though :)

10. What’s your favorite piece of jewelry?

Don't wear any, or for that matter own any.

11. Favorite hobby?

Reading..... Alot

12. Do you have A.D.D.?

Now let me think, do I have........ oooh look fluff

13. What’s one trait that you hate about yourself?

I don't hate any of my traits all my traits make up me and Im great because I'm unique

14. The last disease you contracted?

I dunno

15. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment.

Who am I, who are you and...... I can see you! Nice top by the way :)

16. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink?

Squash, herbal tea and green tea

17. Current worry right now?

Can I get the house organised in time for family round for their christmas dinner

18. Current hate right now?

Don't really hate anything hate is a waste of energy

19. Favorite place to be?


20. How did you ring in the New Year?


21. Like to travel?

yes, as much as poss.

22. Name three people who will complete Sunday Stealing this week:

I have no friends!

23. Do you own slippers?


24. What color shirt are you wearing?

I'm not

25. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets?

No It hurts........

26. Can you whistle?


27. Favorite singer/band?


28. Could you ever make it 39 days on the show Survivor?

What is Survivor????

29. What songs do you sing in the shower?

Im awesome, Im great, I love me....... Not like that pervert!

30. Favorite girl’s names?

Charlotte, Sara, Andrea, Angelina

31. Favorite boy’s name?

Brad, Peter, Harry, Henry

32. What’s in your pocket right now?


33. Last thing that made you laugh?

Omid Djalili - No Agenda

34. Like your job?

Yeah Love it

36. Do you love where you live?

It needs decorating but other than that yeah

37. How many TVs do you have in your house?


38. Who is your loudest friend?


39. Do you drive the speed limit or speed?

Speed Limit

40. Does someone have a crush on you?

Of Course, Im awesome..... Who wouldn't?

41. What is your favorite book?

Hitchhikers Guide To The Galaxy - The Late Great - Douglas Adams - R.I.P.

42. What is your favorite candy?


43. Favorite Sports Team?

The New Zealand All blacks

44. What were you doing 12 AM last night?

Playing On Facebook

45. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up today?

Damn Crackberry Alarm....... Forgot to change it to weekday only

That's enough now you've heard it all pass it on

Peace out

Thursday, 13 November 2008

Intermittent blogging why?

Well I don't know why I'm blogging intermittently! There is a lot going on at the moment, I've just started a fitness plan diet and generally well being regime under the guidance of a personal trainer. I'm also exploring the path and what with work I get home do what I do read your blogs and sleep. Why is today different well Used to be me of 'why are you stalking' (sorry for the lack of linkage I'm in bed on my Crackberry) found me on facebook and I thought you know what I enjoy blogging, get your ass back out there! So here I am.......

I can't promise humour, wit, intelligence or miracles just straight forward British Drivel.

P.s. For all those people putting christmas frontages in shops and christmas lights going up.........


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Monday, 29 September 2008

BBC NEWS | Science & Environment | Team finds Earth's 'oldest rocks'

BBC NEWS | Science & Environment | Team finds Earth's 'oldest rocks'

So the Chicken or the Egg?

Hey *waves*

how was everyones weekend?

mine was fun filled and relaxing all at the same time. My mum has a new lodger 'K' an I think I am rediscovering my Mojo

Wednesday, 24 September 2008


I have been asked to make an addendum to the last post as I have been told to tell you

"she didnt have the boys whilst we were together, they came with her as part of the package! I will be giving out a totaly wrong impression with how I worded that!"

So hopefully thats cleared that up and apparently my grammar is terrible lol

Well thanks B :)

I should also note that I had a new post written out yesterday and blogger and gmail appeared to be playing up or was it just me so......

post lost.

what have we to report Hmmmmm I found a sock, no that's of no importance errrr.....

I want no sorry I need, er no I would really like a holiday but just not happening at the moment.

Big news is I have my driving test on Wednesday so.,..... nerves are building steadily for that.

I don't know if I had told you but apparently my grammar is terrible, not that I'm hurt or anything :(


OK don't know as I have anything else to post at the mo

peace out peeps

Tuesday, 16 September 2008

Time, where does it go……

Where does it go really, time that is? It's Monday already and as far as I can tell without making a list which may or may not prove me wrong I haven't done an awful lot and therefore I feel a little guilty, Although the business appears to be having a healthy Month It doesn't feel like it has been but maybe it's the fruits of my labour from the build up?

It has been encouraging that it appears that while I have been away finding myself I have been missed so that is good, obviously it helped the old ego but besides that its just nice to know there are people out there who appreciate you if only for the smaller things in life.

I have been having quite lengthy discussions with an ex on Facebook of late (Hello yes you know who you are J ) and you know what it's been nice she's married now with 3 kids she had two great boys when we were together she now has a daughter who I am sure is lovely with her husband who I don't know but I'm sure he's a sound bloke but it's great that we can talk and discuss and just chat about stuff.

What it made me realize was that I haven't really apologized to some people since I realized the implications of my illness and I told her I was sorry for being a dick and treating her badly and generally being me and she said I had nothing to apologize for but I feel like I did and it helped it was like another step towards recovery and I want to take the opportunity to apologize to all those people who allowed me to get close to their hearts and emotions and then I treated them badly or in some way hurt them I am, was not totally aware of everything I have done but I am truly sorry for all and any hurt I caused.

Sunday, 14 September 2008

It's been the weekend


barr going round to a clients to set up their wireless at home and be completely scared witless by their 4 kids and choatic household.......

Don't get me wrong lovely family but fuck me I had to get out I stepped intot the corner at one point and they thought I was fucking kidding!

So after that I came home went to bed for a nap the whole Mark [see previous post] thing took it right out of me so I slept til late which isn't good for P&C but hey I needed it so I woke up stayed up til late cus I had napped and still woke up at 8:30.....

My mom was s'posed to be picking me up at 9, she rang at 9 to say she was leaving she is perpetually late but can be always forgiven as she covers with food this morning it was fresh oatcakes and I mean fresh as in she handed them to me and I went SHITE they're effin hot [don't swear round mom she hits harder than me.....

So I ate oatcake on the way to hers we got there she cooks up bacon cheese and oatcake's yeeeeeeaaaah they're awesome with brown sauce to top it off then

1. rip up her friends laminate floor
2. take crap from above to tip
3. eat chicken and mushroom pie mom has made me
5. walk round one of local towns for two hours on guided history tour
4. watch comedy with cup o' tea
5. come home
6. surf t'internet aimlessly

Then find myself writing blog just to say barr that weekend has been really really quite [reads last post]

Has it?

Friday, 12 September 2008

:: bows gracefully ::

He's turned his life around. He used to be depressed and miserable. Now he's miserable and depressed. - David Frost


That was on my igoogle today so I thought I'd share.....

My brother has really fucking pissed me off today so much so I want to construct a pire and burn the bastard alive obviously when I have had my meds I'll calm down but......

Arrrrrrgggggghhhh wwwwooooooo hooooooo

he's just an incipid self centred bastard

feel free to email him and ask him his opinion

Im sure it will differ but you know Im venting here Im allowed to vent its my god damn blog.

No doubt he'll comment I'll delete it [hint] and away we go.

Whats he done, well he's just got married and all the way up to the wedding he's been fucking bridezilla, prissy little pansy must be like this must be like that want you here, dont want you here. Now he's married he's turned into one of those controlling wives that gets beaten to death with a big fucking spanner [I IN NO WAY CONDONE PHYSICAL VIOLENCE TOWARDS WOMEN] I want to do this I want you to be in my shadow I am the best you will conform I am the adult I am all knowing......

Well guess what ASSHOLE?

No I wont no one controls me and no you fucking won't.

I think we are going to come to blows there have been a couple of close calls already one where he was stood in front of me and he looked at me with this look of disdain and I thought fuck it Im just gonna knock the twat through the wall then at his wedding party he looked down his nose at me and I thought I'll just kick it across the fucking lawn.....

but see I am trying to live a calm relaxed chilled life with forgiveness and unconditional love where everything is for the higher good he is the only stumbling block pompous little bastard!

now four deep breaths innnnnnnn, outtttttt!

Wednesday, 10 September 2008

Whats going on, why is it going on and when will it stop

Well, I haven't been around for a while mainly because I have been coming to terms with a few things dealing with the fact that I have to admit this thing (bicurious polar bear, as a friend calls it) is with me for good now and also I have been making some changes and deciding what I want out of life.....

What do I want, well I want to be chilled happy and live every day as it comes :) and that people is how I intend to try and live my life. Notice I said try there, because I still have my bad days but there are fairly infrequent now and I am getting better at spotting them I am also realsing some people when they are hurtful or upset me don't really mean it and even though it really does rile and upset me what I have to do is pull myself out of it and just forgive them.

Unconditional Love, and Its all for the Greater Good

That is my new Mantra I learnt this and many more things from this lady Anne Jones

I was introduced to her work by a relaxation therapist I have started to have a series of therapies with Martha Brophy who has opened my eyes to a whole different world and I thank her every time I see here and often in my thoughts for her help.

Also I have recently joined a Business Networking group which I have been appointed group leader of my Area for which has done wonders for my confidence and self-esteem.

I think I have gone off on a tangent here but all in all I am more of me than I have been in a long while I have left the empty husk of a person I was 6-12 months ago behind and have evolved into a more open more emotionally aware and definately more attuned person who is willing to give as well as receive and above all help before wanting.

All in all I think I am back more than I have ever been and I think I am going to try and keep this here upto date again so

Hello blogosphere Im back Im bad and yes my grammar is shite...........

Tuesday, 10 June 2008

Thank you

I'm going to start here with a thank you, to who well she knows & she knows why it wasn't a huge gesture or a particularly long or eloquent one but it was perfect and couldn't have been better timed.

To put it shortly I have been ill well I am ill, no that's not right, I share my mind with this Illness known as bipolar and over the past few weeks (okay months 'shhh in the stalls') it has consumed me I have been stressed distracted and all in all not me it culminated on Saturday night with me me taking an overdose of my medication ok as you can tell I'm ok I woke up with what felt like the mother of all hangovers and it felt like the French foreign legion where marching a salsa on my kidneys but I'll live, what's my point well that was pretty stupid what I did, I have people, you out there reading this (er you are still there aren't you, oh yeah I see you) I have a support network I just need to use it and I have learnt some skills to help me the problem is sometimes its just so FUCKING hard people...

I'm only human and that's what i've got to remember when Im piling work on stressing about something I need to end (more on that later) and beating myself up for things that in the grand scheme are inconsequential)

I'm Human

If I repeat this I apologise but It s gonna have to be my new mantra if I'm gonna come out of this any use to any one at all

Oh an I think I've decided I wanna get married an have kids ok im single and i've always been dead against marriage but I'm human sue me!

Sunday, 6 April 2008

Intermittent Blogging, normal blogging will resume shortly

I'm not sure! That's something I appear to be saying or at least thinking to myself an awful lot lately and why you ask faithful readership? (ok all two of you well it's nearly a readership lol) Well you know what I don't know it's been a fairly interesting week in the world of me I have a date on Tuesday I had friends round on Saturday (last night) I have been going to the Gym regularly for over a week now and my blood pressure is down massively, I just think towards the back end of the week I started to get tired real tired! My business partner has been away for two weeks in Brazil (brought me back some really nice presents more on those later) and I think the extra effort and stress has just laid me out a bit really.


OK, Ok, yes I said I have a date on Tuesday, I have been single for 2 years 10 months and 9 days and the closest I've been to any kind of relations of the fun kind where with a friend of my Mum's (yes you read right, no I'm not going into it, well oooo k but maybe later or another post) Anyway as I was saying I have been single for a long time and Im nervous in the kinda Virgin sort of Nervous way lol. Which I suppose is good. I have told the woman in question and she admitted nerves as well as she doesn't really date so I feel a little better.

But wait til I tell you how the date formulated, I have been interrupted by her texting me additions will be added later ;)

Wednesday, 26 March 2008

Lazy CBA or is he

Well I could given you a billion reasons why I CBA to post tonight I'm currently in bed an knackered an I am going to the Gym at 6:45 tomorrow......

Yes you heard right!!!

An that's just three reasons but actually the real reasons dear and beloved readers is because......

My Wii came

No not that kind you filth mongers

My Wii fitness age is currently 41 and I'm getting pretty shit hot at Golf

I don't care what any one says I'm havin fun

Any one wants to share Mii's with me just drop me an email and I'll send you my Wii number

L Out
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Tuesday, 25 March 2008

Antartictic shelf 'hangs by thread'

This is the shit that really scares me, OK guns, birds (don't ask.... I said don't), an a whole lot of other close at hand shit could happen to me now, things scare me! But this shit really scares me because I think its too late!!!

An that's not me in a depressive mood either (I'm bipolar- it's in my profile... what da ya mean you haven't read it I'm interesting me ;( )

This is just me being realistic, we have been abusing the shiate out of the planet like a whore we've dosed to the eye balls on rohypnol and she's woke up like "The Bride" in 'Kill Bill' an guess what we're Bill !

BBC NEWS | Science/Nature | Antarctic shelf 'hangs by thread'

On a lighter note It turns out Hilary coulda lied, at last she's coming through as a true politician now I wish she'd get it out of the way and bang an aide

L Out

Monday, 24 March 2008

What’s etiquette with blogging HELP!!! please

O.K. the reason I'm struggling here is because I don't normally have that many comments, I'm not complaining please comment it makes me feel like I have friends well at least that some people like me, ok don't hate me..... Happy


When someone comments on NMI do I comment in my own post hoping they'll re-read comment on their blog?

How does this work I have to ask cus it's been bugging me different people do different things and I just thought I'd check before I trod on the Godzilla of blogging toes or other likewise things

Well Easter is over, Mary was out and I went to the pub with friends and Zombie Jesus Read my Paper

Yesterday was a bit of an unusual day for me it started of frustratingly I normal order my shopping from Tesco's (other shops are available) online on Saturday night to have it delivered Sunday and also get my paper thrown in and that comes to then all I have to do on Sunday is drag my sorry ass outta bed read some blogs wait for the food to be delivered cook, eat read the paper and repeat.

This Sunday it was not to be the fucking bastards nice people at Tesco had no slots left until Tuesday I'm blaming Zombie Jesus !!!

So I had to get up have a shower (I always do this last one honest, no I do smell me, Okay not you Britt and Avitable your smellophobics ) and go out, Oh I remembered to get dressed then I wandered over to the supermarket CLOSED (bloody Zombie Jesus) the garage was thankfully open, but they hadn't had a delivery of my brand of paper then I wandered up the hill to the shop that is opposite my office and low and behold taaa daaa

They had bloody sold out!

So now well and truly peeved at zombie jesus I went home, yes I could have brought another paper but I like that one and if you didn't already know I have issues ok it has to be that paper!!!

Anyway I gets a text off a friend to say "Me the missus Gaz (his brother) and Mark are over the road why don't you join us?"

Now Normally I would have found some excuse not to go or not answered or something but I just text straight back to say I'd be right over....

Whoa what I thought why did you do that well brain was running ahead of himself obviously, but we went and it was fun in fact in was an awesome afternoon ok I was drinking alcohol free beck as I'm sober these days but I still had fun maybe later I'll go into more detail or not.

I wandered back over four hours or so later and got a text off my business partner could I pop over to the apartment opposite and show his dad who's currently lodging in his apartment while his new one is being built how to use the shower?

No probs I say I wander over knock on show him which way to turn it on and how to use it and we have some light chit chat and then I leave its only when I get back into my apartment I remember I was stood chatting to his very catholic dad wearing this it gave me a giggle

Go Read Chrystal why because I said so she makes me laugh and her videos are like what's going on in my mind

Also pop in on Kyra she's as funny as she also has some awesome guest post bloggers Hot hot hot as is Kyra

For now Mark is coming to pick me in a short while an we are going for lunch so

L Out

Saturday, 22 March 2008

I know I haven’t posted in too long

I just dunno I have loads of stuff to post about, like a clients wife telling me I'd be a great catch cus i'm intelligent, funny, good looking and so on and so (she's attractive and funny and intelligent, but lets not tell him he's a good client) Also my brother Mark is back in touch loads he's been over today he brought me an Easter egg awww bless him and my invite to the evening do of his wedding nearly a week after the wedding (which is in august) the invites are nice though...

Okay so maybe a post is forming

I left the house today pre 9 am which is just weird for me I'm so not a morning person its untrue. The thing is they have opened a Subway right over the road from me yes that close I can near enough hear the neon sign humming its glorious tune of (eat me, eat me... Well ok not the sign but a sub) I was going on my travels as has been my want on Saturdays since I stopeed working them and I decided I would go in there while waiting for the bus as the manageress is really cute she has a smile thats stops me thinking its awesome it needs bottling! So I went in ordered a bacon breakfast sub and a c up of tea I know I was only going in for tea but its her smile you see...

I know you can't see but I can't really take a photo its not like its one hour photo or anything!

Then I went to get on the bus and I am so blaming this on the cute brain stopping smile I got on in the wrong direction I had to do a 14 mile round trip to get back where I had started and then 11 mile trip to get where I wanted to be this took me 2 hours but it's ok cus that smile is awesome (oh Subway's are good too)

L out

Tuesday, 18 March 2008

Im not sure where I’m going with this

I have been talking with my business partner in the office today and we have come to the decision that there just isn't enough discipline in British schools see link O.K. we didn't come to the decision just over that article but a whole bunch of things kids are drinking younger there are more kids having under age sex and generally a good majority of the youth of today are falling into a pit of moral….

HA I hear you cry from the back you can't make the teachers deal with this problem it's the parents fault!!!

Well yes and no the parents do need to take a pro-active role in all this but on the whole a good proportion of British parents have the intelligence where with all or common sense to guide their kids in the right direction that's why they aren't all being home schooled and most of the British populace read the Sun for fucks sake and those not reading the Sun (stop clicking that link your brain cells will melt) read the Mail a paper who during the war had correspondence with Hitler for fucks sake and published a front page making out he wasn't such a bad guy (Google this I lost the link). I know there are some intelligent parents out there but there are a lot of numbskull fuckwits I tell you! So, should they bring back opt in corporal punishment or some other form of discipline for these little bastards, I mean I future leaders, the little loves. Or should we carry on letting them bring guns knives and heroin into school ??

I say beat the little fuckers ( I mean discipline them) ;o)

But oh dear readers what are your thoughts !!

Sunday, 16 March 2008

Another off track beating

Off the beaten track

This is a little off my normal foray but it interested me and I thought it might interest a few of my readers ?

From The Sunday Times

March 16, 2008

Do not adjust your set: TV is about to blow apart

Andrew Sullivan

Is television over? I don't mean the technology of course. Television, in many ways, has never been better. High definition – although pretty brutal on Republican frontrunner John McCain – has applied Windolene to the televised world and made nature documentaries as riveting as the latest block-buster. CGI effects have made even Doctor Who as cool as Hollywood.

By television being over, I mean the classic television experience: the ritual of coming home after work, flopping on the couch and simply allowing "what's on" to flood over you. We still do it of course. As an avenue for the moving image, however, the passive, network-driven model has clearly changed beyond recognition and will soon change still further. The classic television programme, like the classic newspaper, is morphing into something very different.

The internet, in the television industry as in many others, is both the infection and the cure. It will do to television what it has done to journalism: make everyone a producer and everyone a potential star.

You can trace the long arc of this now accelerating transformation from the onset of cable and satellite in the 1980s and 1990s. The mid-20th-century ability of a network such as the BBC or the great American broadcasting companies – such as CBS or NBC – to determine or greatly affect what people saw and felt and thought at any given time was slowly, and mercifully, eroded. That trend was clearly ramped up in the new millennium by Tivo – digital video recorders not unlike the Sky+ system – so that even the far more diverse programming of a hundred different channels came to be sliced and diced by myriad consumer preferences and appetites.

I don't know about you, but I rarely leave my evening viewing to chance or to programmers any more. It's planned and recorded in advance. And even if I watch live I delay starting for 10 minutes so I can zip past the advertisements.

The web, in turn, has ratcheted TV consumer power up a couple of notches. In this election season in the United States the shift is unmistakable. Ratings for most cable news shows have soared, but the platforms for dissemination of content have proliferated just as quickly. Some still watch the debates in real time – but it is very easy to watch them the day after online with all the tedious boilerplate removed.

YouTube has the clips; and the instant parodies; and the day-later parodies of the parodies. Blogs now edit their own versions of the high-lights, with blogger video commentary introducing or even interrupting them. And so a television moment on a late night comedy show will be designed for multiple audiences: the live one, the Tivoed one and the next day's online one. The soundbite has become the videobite. And many TV advertisements are given nominal network exposure before having a longer viral life online.

The only limit to the merging of the web and television in this way seems to be the online attention span. Online viewers, sitting at their laptops or gazing at their iPhones, only really want to watch online TV for three minutes at most. And that's why the old format still has a future.

You don't want to watch a programme, let alone a full-length film or lengthy documentary, or even a half-hour news broadcast, on a computer screen. What endures online is the quick hit, the short impression, the visual punchline that requires a minimal set-up. For drama or in-depth journalism or even an interview that can actually get beneath the surface of a subject or beyond the spin of a public figure: television still has the edge.

But that too may be changing. No one doubts that the technology of streaming online video to a wide-screen television is on its way, however unsatisfying some of its current manifestations. And that, in turn, means self-produced, web-originated video is on the verge of bigger and better ambitions.

Just as blogging swept away the barriers of entry to journalism, so citizen television will surely begin to reach an audience that appreciates it. Right now it's merely a blip. Novelty acts or musical parodies or cartoon fun dominate web television. But the principle of mass access to TV audiences through online media has been established.

Already you find print journalists or bloggers switching on a video cam and broadcasting their content live – their own personal television channel. Most online magazines are beginning to generate their own amateurish but classic television chat shows; traditional newsrooms feature online video interviews with their reporters and columnists and send them out to the blogosphere. The share that video is taking of web bandwidth keeps growing exponentially – and may even create traffic jams within a few years' time.

As so often, this democratisation of production means higher highs and much lower lows. Nutcases and geniuses – thousands who would never in a million years have made it past the professional barriers for old-style TV networks – now broadcast their idiosyncratic monologues to the masses. Hyde Park Corner is no longer a function of mere words-on-pixels. You can now see and hear an opiner opine or watch a conversation unfold. Find yourself someone to interview, set up your video cam and you can have your own show. Just put it on your blog and try to find an audience. Anyone with a modem has their own potential TV channel. It's just that most people haven't realised it yet.

And this is where the new medium, with a bit of luck, may reach back and regenerate the old. When you think of the glory days of television chat shows, Americans recall the leisurely erudition of William F Buckley's Firing Line, where intellectuals and thinkers were able to think out loud for an hour on the subjects of the day, without commercials and with an audience that revelled in more than a five-minute attention span.

That used to be the sober, intellectual, black-and-white BBC as well. It is all but impossible to find such a thing on network or cable television today. But the possibility of an online version is very real and economically feasible.

The great beauty of the online world, after all, is its lack of constraint. No interview need stop in full flow to accommodate an advertisement; the cost is so low that the format can accommodate the content rather than the other way round; and if viewers have sought you out, there is less need for the low attention span gimmick to keep the ratings up.

Equally, a simple 20-second sight gag or joke or comment online can be profoundly effective – a time slot that can't exist alone on television. The web deconstructs and reconstructs media in ways that the institutions of the past couldn't muster.

So if you're still reeling from the impact of blogs on journalism, sit tight. Blogging with words was simply the beginning; blogging with video has only just begun.

I won something ;)

I won over at Miss Britt's (Go say hello) which kind of made my Sunday, although to be fair I was having a pretty damn good Sunday anyway.

I got up late showered wandered my ass over to the supermarket picked up a paper and some pineapple juice cooked myself up some bacon and Philadelphia (with garlic and herb) sandwiches and chilled.

Let's face it that's what Sundays are for =]

I had a good night last night actually I had a friends Jo round for eats....

I cooked

Garlic and chilli King prawns to start

Oven baked cannelloni

Then we had Ben and Jerry's Choc chip and Cream

An we chatted the night away a really good night ;)



There may be more here but I've just lost my train of thought!

Friday, 14 March 2008

Hey Peeps, Ive had a request, there's been some suggestions of camel fucking and the Llama's are making a cumback

I've had a request and I intend to fulfil but hold on....

(*takes to one side*  look Kyra I couldn't give you exactly what you asked for! I just couldn't do that to as you'd see the video you'd leave Dean-o an I kinda like him)

So back to you guys as requested by one of the throng !....

Shsss it makes me feel powerful.....

Here we have for one night only....

Llama porn

taaaa daaaa


Don't look at me like that I wiped up afterwards!!!!

L Out

Wednesday, 12 March 2008

I think I’m being fucked by a llama


No I'm not I'm just bored! The projector for my new Wii which isn't coming for 3 weeks stoopid delivery bastards!!! Came today, other than that I am bored, bored, bored!

G had his interview today, for a new job cus he doesn't like the one he does now all wish him good luck now, now dammit

(stamps feet)


I said now!


I am just so bored


I got in, I ate, I read some blogs. Hey Kyra thanks for the comments hun ;) gonna have to try that ;) I added Avitable to my facebook I shot the shit out of a few things on counter strike including a toilet wielding a n uzi and a dustbin shooting at me with a 9mm.

I then ate some special K

Now I can't decide whether to eat more or masturbate any suggestions or shall I ask the llama?

I hope he's brought some lube!


L out

Monday, 10 March 2008

Creme Egg an Crunchie Mcflurries, fuck ups and forgets

Lets start with Mark again

Say hello everyone (Go on wave you bastards!)

Mark has dropped in to comment again so here we are =

Mark here again.. quite enjoying this commenting. Firstly - Good blog Lee - can't recall why stopped reading it.

Me and Garry are really pleased you enjoyed Saturday, Garry was particularly pleased that he had somebody to play on the Wii with - You never mentioned that Mr Whitaker procured you a mixed McFlurry.. :o)

any way - I'm here to comment on Ickletoria, She is our Cousin but she is my best friend, and my witness, her attendance is compulsary, she is as close to a best man that I would have.. although if it was a big gay wedding you 3 brothers would be my flower girls.. lol... frocks and all..


Now back to me because regardless of how what Mark says I'm more important! I am the eldest for god's sake let's not forget this key point in what is undoubtedly a selfish rant on my part hey!

Firstly I cannot believe I forgot the Creme Egg an Crunchie Mcflurry It was delish an all! We didn't have deserts at Miller & Carter G suggested we have Mcflurry instead multiple head nodding and the suggested was concreted in the annuls of time along with the ark of the covenant and the ten commandments or are they related? Where is Indiana when you need him....

Anyway we pulls up to the McDonalds drive thru window an G asks Mark what he wants and Mark states Creme Egg then G turns to me an I say Creme egg an Crunchie! Yes I am always awkward well the little uniformed troll of fast food servitude, she proceeds to shut the windows of plentiful food on us while she disappeared to ask the magical food people....

Meanwhile Mark turns to G an says I can't believe you asked for that you would have told me to feck off, well Mark see I'm special ;) Anywho said troll of fast food servitude returns and says yes to which I bounce up and down like a retarded space hopper clapping like a seal in the back seat and we move to the ethereal window of divine food delivery (or Kiosk 3).

Creme egg and Crunchie Mcflurry is really nice by the way ;)

As for Mark's most recent comment I would where a frock if you just asked me.....

I await my invite anywho likkle bro. At the end of the day I just want you an G to be happy an whatever it takes is fine by me you've fucked up we all have I've moved on we all do the only reason there will be a grey cloud is cus we live in Britain and it rains a lot (just thought I'd clarify that in case you hadn't noticed) Or if you let it.....


An you know what I wouldn't let it, its your day enjoy you know I might just gate crash anyway lol......


I'm kidding, well a little


Back to me cus Im ace well not too brill today actually went to see Dr and it was hard ended up really upset but he is really pleased with my progress and how I am self managing, jesus am I hadn't fucking noticed. I must be, he says he wants me less dependant on the system but he is still upping my medication in a few months, which kind pushed an pulled, I think I can see where he is going. He says I have to stop over analysing things, easier said than done he know's like when people say chin up the number of people I have mutilated beyond recognition in my mind for saying that to me you'd be amazed what you can do with a tea spoon and a chopstick!


Short an curlies of it are seein him drained and my head feels warm an empty

L out

Out with G an Mark Pt 2.

Just a quick intro first everyone say Hello to Mark as he joined us as an anonymous commentator to add his bit and make corrections, which I encourage whole heartedly. I stand corrected in a couple of Matters

Correction 1)

Evening - corrections (from his brother Mark)

I told Ma & Pa it was 12 people that were attending my Civil Union (don't know where 16 came from) and I named them, brothers aren't invited from either side of the partnership as we want small informal do with friends if we include parents and brother + partners it becomes 40+ people in attendance. And Garry and Myself do not want a big gay wedding...

Just wanted to clear this up from my part as you seem as misinformed as everyone else that mum or dad speak too.


Can't really argue with this one can I it all seems to make sense

Correction 2)

quite like commenting 

I think i'll do it on each post i'm mentioned in.... ;o)

Choose to attend the celebration of our civil union because you want to turn up, not because readers of your blog persuade you to attend.

(This isn't nice now cus he's talking to you guys don't listen to him, no don't I said! )

Mum & Dad have only been told that they may not be attending the ceremony at the Lakes, but no family members will be attending the ceremony (Vik is friend before family
(Regardless Mark She's still family so it's not no Family is it!!!!!)) I don't class my parents as above my brothers in family hierachy but as eqully important to my life. If none of my closest family wish to join in our celebration then so be it. Although Al has said he will be there!! 


In case you hadn't worked it out I added my bits in red after the event

This is still in the machinations status an as I haven't had an invite to either it's a mute point at the moment so we shall see, (We'll G verbally asked me, but I don't have a date or a proper invite)

Anyway back to yesterday, we ended up playing on the Wii for 3 hours it tells you, yeah it does, it really does. We played on various Wii sports games the boxing one has meant that I haven't been able to lift my arms above my shoulders today ;) Mark and G's friends S and J arrived and we all had cups of tea and chatted and watched some T.V. they are really nice I like them, We had a look at Resident Evil 4 which is really groovy Mark cooked which was nice and S an J had to go, We chatted a bit more then I had to go home all in all I had a really good day (Oh we ate the rest of Mark's chocolates as well ;) )

I was well an truly knackered Wii sports is awesome as is the Wii..... So I ordered one ooops naughty me.

The general theme of the day was it was a nice change I had a good day out and I suggested to Mark that he a organise a night and I'll cook he invite S and J round an we'll have a Wii party it will be reet fun.

So get on it Mark!

In different news, I'm see my nut Dr bout the old Cyclothymia tomorrow an I need to tell him how rough it's been this past month or so. I really am struggling to keep things together some days an other days I have really lucid days. I am more convinced it's the stress I am putting myself under at work. The problem is I really enjoy my work, but also I am also enjoying the days of clarity I am having when I know I am well and I haven't been for so long. Gonna have to give this some real thought as it may take some real serious life restructuring.

C has sent me a message on Face book about organising going to the Natural History Museum in London together (As Friends!) so that has lifted me

I'm tired so I'm going to bed

Oh quick shout out to fellow Blogger Kyra Sutra she really has been a blast recently struggling with some real life shite an all the time bein up beat (hot) and funny as go pay her a visit please

(Ok just go fecking read her blog......... now dammit)

L Out

Sunday, 9 March 2008

G and Mark

As I think I may or may not of mentioned Mark and G offered to take me out today and I thought it may have had something to do with the whole Civil Ceremony thing (Trauma an AWOOGA alert "sir we need the red bulb") but as it happens we had none of that, it went thus......

The plan was to pick me up at 11 I get a text just before to say this won't be the case as "the G has only jus got up" no probs I had had breakfast anywho ;) .

So at jus gone 12 they pick me up in Marks Aiygo (Spelling) an I get in the back reallistically we needed forceps lube 40 pounds of lard and a lump hammer but we managed it!

We head out of our local area on a main road an stop for fuel then we deviate off this A road so Mark can take us to one of many rural pubs they use many "err turn this way's" an G givin disapprovin looks later an some windy ass roads following a tractor an many white vans seein wales a slanty house a post box an me spankin Marks Monkey (See facebook, Album "Saturday") an we pull onto the same said A road from earlier an almost onto the carpark of an eatery we have used before G states we are eating here I need to pee I am lubed out of the back an we head inside....

The food was ace for details email me but I had a steak an cheese baguette v.nice the waiter cud of smiled more but he was cute enough an in a moment of weakness you probably would I ordered a decaf coffee which came in a thimble for £1.75 daylight bloody robbery but the food wasn't mortgage requirement worthy.

We chatted about jus stuff which was nice an then we headed back to Mark an G's via the A road funnily it took a quarter of the time to get home

Once home G got out the WII an in my shame this was my first time G took my WII Cherry an it was good the earth moved the heavens opened an I felt on the verge I'm off to do something vulgar now more tomorrow........

L Out
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Tuesday, 4 March 2008

Do you feel dirtied soiled and violated

An why should I you ask? (ok you at the back that are enjoying the thought calm down )

Well, ok you personally maybe have no need to, well ok you over there do but you asked him to put it in there and you brought the marmalade

Any way I digress I am of course talking about you blog yes I went a little bit more public with you tonight I told them about you at group.

Is that it! You ask well yes I just told complete strangers I know and meet regularly physically in RL where to read about themselves

"Hello Girls"

No I'm not going to. calm down I promised not to mention them and I won't but it feels kinda weird telling people outside of family, that I will meet again it exists.
A bit like peeling back my Skull and saying "here ave a look in here will ya, aint it a mess"

In a way it also feels kind of invigorating in a release kind of way.

This was actually my last group session on that subject but we have agreed to meet up again in a months time and normally I wouldn't go but you know what I'm definately going! Which wheb considering the issues I have with close contact with woman an my group consists of me an 7 woman is one hell of a step in the right direction wouldn't you say ?

L out
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An old friend

I went for lunch with an old friend C yesterday we hadn't seen each other in some 8 yrs. We kinda went on a couple of dates back in when we where young but nothing serious an I used to have a heavy duty crush on her for a long time.

Any way we met for lunch I told her about my Bipolar she was understanding ;) we hugged we chatted we went back to her sisters I hooked her works laptop up to her sisters broadband we took her dog R for a walk in the nearby park then we parted company.

I think I've found a friend an no not like that this time a real friend its been so long an we'll see we may lose touch again but she has offered to take me round the natural history museum so we'll see Ill certainly work on staying in touch an you know what it made me so happy just havin someone to talk to

I know you don't read this or even know it exists but thanks C
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Monday, 25 February 2008

Where to start and how to stop my cat humping my inner elbows

I tell you having a cat hump the inside of your arm while she gets comfy and you try to type or every now and again she just gets up to have a look round or play the cello at me (cat owners will know, everone else Im sparing you honest I am really) makes it a bit of a goit to type surf the net or basically use my computer but she appears to have found this spot and she likes it. We even played a game of lets see if I can entice you away with lovely crunchy salmon flavoured (they really fecking stink) treat which she'll normally go berserk for but she just looked at me as if to say

"Do I really look as stupid as you!"

So here I am type over a cats shoulder having to guess wqhete certain keys are and pretend like Im not the species thats in charge!

Meanwhile earlier this evening there was a young female wandering around the local supermarket dressed very sportily if not a little scantily for the current clime a tight jogging style sports top and matching black hipster jogging bottoms cut to her ass cheeks and showing hers abs she had the body to show and I don't blame her but a high percentage of the people in that supermarket will have been either perving (me! moi? no!) or envious and when I had collected my required purchases I made my way to a checkout ok I may have looked at her once or twice but Im MALE and HUMAN its all against me when I get to the till I start unloading (don't be dirty now) and im at the same til as the said female she pays and leaves and as I get level with the cashier quite young not un attractive but wearing braces she is nudging her companion making some envious comment about the previous customer.

As she turns to me

L - "Envy is our worst emotion"

C - "I know but I cant help it"

L - "Im sure your far more intelligent than her any way and your just as beautiful"

C - *goes crimson red giggles and starts being furiously helpful* "something about change have nice evening and goodbye"

Ok so it was all bollocks but when I left she was smiling like a cheshire cat and I made her night

L Out

Saturday, 23 February 2008

I got this today.....

Sent: 23 Feb 2008 16:48
Subject: L, n, a.

L, n, a Sorry this is over text. Me and g have chosen to in the lakes for our civil union as there are no decent venues in S and we wanted a small low key affair with a few close friends.. The family is huge and we don't have that sort of money to include everyone. I'm hoping that as my brothers you will still be a part of the occasion and celebrate with us at S. Mum and dad are choosing not to attend but i'm hoping you will be there to support Me and G in our commitment to each other. Mark. x

Just to let you know S is not where they are having the civil partnership the party is almost a week afterwards what do you think, shall I go, or not. Im fairly sure N and A aren't going cus of how upset Mum is at not being invited they have been asked not to go by the way my Mum and Dad I don't know why because Mark is taking stronger drugs than me or because he feels the need to be so emotionally damaging and not have s ingle damn good excuse, I'm not sure I care what his reasons are! I'm sort of blah about it because that way I don't have to get involved cus stress just sets me off.

Anyway if you've got an opinion or at least if enough of you manage to sway me....

You know like Big brother or Survivor....


L Out

Well hello there

I have been mostly suffering from a man cold this week well it seemed to start as a man cold....

Then the bloody thing transmogrified into a full blown cold type affair, I had to have two days off which for me is nothing short of unreal as besides the Mental Illness issues I haven't had a day off for illness since I started working.....

You know what it sucked camel balls Ok I read Ian Rankin's Naming the Dead (Very Good) and am now 200 pages through Ian Rankin's Exit Music (So Far very good, but Mr Rankin please don't write Rebus out (No spoiler, I haven't finished it))

I want to big up two fellow bloggers today Miss Britt who besides the fact that she hasn't had a brilliant week is still a beautiful and very, very funny person and Avitable who is also awesomely funny and needs someone to tidy his office really he does go see ;)

I am still feeling slightly sorry for myself but Im off to see Omid Djalili tomorrow night and Im going no matter how ill I am

L Out

Sunday, 17 February 2008

Student Life

I went to my Cousin L's house party last night for the culmination of her week of celebrating her 21st birthday. I had actually been out the night before with the to one of our local towns to party the night away but whether or night I had just been tired felt out of place or still wasn't ready for crowds I had given up early, my brothers N and A on the other hand had by all accounts had a very good night acquainting themselves with my cousins friends by verbally appraising various appendages too loudly....

Which leads nicely on to Saturday night, it was a byob night and L had said that there was a little booze so being three of my family going together me (no longer a drinker) my brothers N and A we took

2 six packs of Dr pepper

1 litre of Bacardi Berry

1 litre of Vodka

1 750ml Gallo White Zinfandel

1 non alcoholic mixer (that was gross)

24 cans of Stella Artois

We got there and we let's say we had over done it a bit there was enough alcohol to sink a battleship, oh well never mind my family really can drink (no really its disturbing)

Anyway we get there and my Aunty P is on the phone to my cousin L asking where she is and it turns out L is just eating her evening meal and P is explain to her that she has been cooking all god day not especially using expletives but it was heated.

We start to mingle people start to arrive the place begins to fill up with family and guests, still no party girl then P disappears to go and fetch her and eventually P returns with L and more friends and family arrive and by all accounts a good night is had by all.

And there ends the safe version he he he

This is the fun part of being at parties sober you don't really get the opportunity to miss much.

It turns out my cousin C smokes and she has issues deep rooted issues she is doing psychology but she doesn't seem very happy and I hope she gets herself sorted cus drink aint the way.

My brother M is getting a civil partnership in August and isn't inviting my parents which as you might guess has utterly fucked them off( he told them it was a quiet do just maybe 6 people, it turns out there's closer to 16 and he has actually used the phrase friends are more important than family, oooh wounder.) well there was a row and tears and heated debates about that last night and towards the end when every one was alcohol fuelled it become teary debate of the night.

I know Im not getting invited because of the birthday party fuck up and you know how I use letters instead of names well


Mark you've royally fucked up this time.


Anywho there's more going on at the party my cousins L's friends who herded together for the most part in the kitchen at one point had a right ole conversation which ended in one of them openly admitting to everyone present although I think her friends knew that she had had anal sex and she didn't like it but it wasn't too bad and that she played with herself as well as during sex and also that some of the others played with themselves which eventually led to another of the group admitting to anal sex.

Now people don't be too harsh on them they are only young and they haven't read some of your blogs where this kind of behaviour is merely foreplay, but look at it from my point of view I was at a family party and 19 – 20 something's where telling there all I enjoyed it even if you don't also a couple of my cousin's L's friends are cute so that didn't hurt.

As for the bipolar, he's being a good boy at the moment is P&C as long as I keep him medicated and am a little careful what I eat and most importantly don't drink then everything seems to be getting easier to handle plus I ahve started excersicing which of course always helps, so its looking good.

Blogs of note

Miss Britt Go visit she's funny

Crystal Anne as well as being funny she's smoking hot which isn't to say Miss Britt isn't smoking hot.....

Looking they are both hot go read now.....


Go on with ya


L Out

Friday, 8 February 2008

Well its been an up and a down kinda month (bipolar, up and down get it lol)

Anyway, I went to see a band play last night my cousin L her Boyfriend A and my brother N where there since I have stopped drinking and smoking I haven't been out well I actually had a good night!

No really I did. I am going to my cousins 21st on the 16th I have been going to the cinema every other week ;) Generally been getting out and about.

Big news, I have started to excersice which could be helping, you know endorphins an all.

I have found an absolutley awesome blogger Go check Adam out he's ace

I'm going to the theatre to see a stand up comedian Omid Djalili on the 24th I am seriously looking forward to that we have seats fourth from the front.

I am also my third week into group therapy, yes its just like in Fight club no big titted bob aaint there and no Im not gonna blow stuff up with soap although its a thought I have oft considered I know some prime canidates.

I have had another tattoo started the pictures will follow at a later date for anyone who isnt a regular I have my whole right sleeve tattooed and although it is painful Im not too bad with pain, well I am having the new tattoo on my chest and all I can say is


I want my mummy

L Out

oooh p.s.

go here Kylie she's really quite funny and here

Sunday, 20 January 2008

Damn I'm Getting Lazy

Now before y'all roll your eyes at me I have been following the American candidates for presidency to a certain extent and deep down rooting for Hilary now without choosing her policies or specifically to get theses results I got this

74% Hillary Clinton
73% Joe Biden
71% Barack Obama
70% John Edwards
69% Chris Dodd
68% Bill Richardson
65% Dennis Kucinich
61% Mike Gravel
61% Rudy Giuliani
48% John McCain
45% Mitt Romney
37% Mike Huckabee
31% Fred Thompson
28% Tom Tancredo
14% Ron Paul

2008 Presidential Candidate Matching Quiz

from Here fun blog go read, go on now

now your back look at that Hilary 74% I'll root for her abit more I think, also by doing this quiz I have realised other than the facts that american bastardised our law and our language

DONT USE F*&KING Z when it should be an s

We are pretty similiar

Friday, 18 January 2008

Lazy Blog

I borrowed this from Avitable

Let's make a band:
The first article title is the name of your band.

The last four words of the very last quote is the title of your album.

The third picture, no matter what it is, will be your album cover.

Now take your pic, add the band name and title to it, then post it.
Hey! We're all rockstars now!

Here's mine:

Now you try

Saturday, 12 January 2008

American Politics

I don't really follow politics too much I keep an eye on it in a sort of yeah it seems to be simmering along like it has done for decades in a a dromant giant kind of way, but this year I have found myself also keping an eye on American politics.

I have no idea why I'm not American, maybe its because alot of what goes on over in American can now affect the world as they are becoming as powerful as they are and oh what with their "we smell oil lets raze a country tactics" but all in all I think Im rooting for Obama or Clinton.

If I had the vote I think, I'd vote for hilary plus she's hot and I don't think I'd sleep with any of the others...

I need a holiday, have I told you this dear readers? If not I do, I'm tired its been over a year since I had a proper break and I need one.

L out

Thursday, 10 January 2008

I Am Legend

I went to the cinema tonight with my brother which was cool we went and had a drink first then we got some munchies and went and sat down in the cinema to watch a film we where both looking forward to seeing [mental not read imdb before going to see a film....]



If its a Zombie film IT SHOULD BE THE LAW that they have to put it in the tagline to give you some kind of warning, I honestly nearly shat my pants I was expecting something along the lines of castaway with a sci-fi twist and I got 28 days later and no sleep for another week....

From what I saw when my eyes weren't shut (you've guessed it reader I'm a big assed scaredy cat )its a damn good film although obviously you should go out and ask someone who watched the whole film.

I like Will Smith he's a good actor the one thing I will say is they missed a lot of plot explanation out, there you go you gotta watch it now to see what I mean.

Oh an the doc has prescribed me some temazepam for my insomnia so actually maybe zombies won't be an issue

Goodnight All


L Out

Sunday, 6 January 2008

Saturday, 5 January 2008

One of my best friends & his Wife Mr & Mrs B while they where off traveling in Australia last year pretty much for the whole year bar & days, they are home now I have so missed them and I am seeing them next week so thats cheered things up some what.

look at that view =]
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Friday, 4 January 2008

This was a comment

My Christmas went way to well, as well.

It's bad do these people not know we have blogs to write...

lol no that's right mine don't.

Oh who am I kidding I had a good time, first time I was with my family over the hols for five years and nothing to tell my shrink, I'm sure he'll be upset he's had a twelve month build up to this event. Now I'm just gonna have to let him down gently.

New Year on the other hand I starting drinking on Saturday, yeah , yeah I know knew year wasn't until Monday well let's just say I gave myself a couple of days off and may have overdone it a little but its all good now =]

I'm currently off drink and cigarettes. Not because of the binge it was my plan to have twelve months off don't tell anyone but I have porked out a bit over the last twelve months and I could do with shifting a few pounds.

As the title states I was over at Fauves being a nuisance and I was posting a comment and the above came drivelling out and I thought ooh I can't leave that as a comment it's just rude so I shortened it to a comment and came home and posted this....

Bored yet lol

Well New Years Eve I went out with my dad and some friends for a few beers then went to meet some other friends and bumped into You and friends and family (same group in the linked post) and oh I just can't control my emotions for that female but hey distance (she's in London now) and Her boyfriend will sort that. (Here's hoping hey)

(I may be slightly hung up on her, you know the old can't move on business)

I also bumped into an old friend A on New Year's Eve and we have revived contact since which is cool.

Never Mind the Year is moving in the right Direction.

I mean I have just had three really dark days and what with my new Meds and some strong mental tactics I think we are through it and I didn't block up my blog with dark once



L Out


This was a Birthday card off my Brother M and his other half G its ACE isn't it plus it describes me well roflmao

"Hunter S Thompson"
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My Nan & Grandad

We aren't sure if that's me or my brother yet but Ill update you soon
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Tuesday, 1 January 2008

Happy New Year

Here's hoping 2008 brings you all everything you've hoped and wished for and the rest of the year promises success health and happiness.