I just can't get into Xmas or dating it seems

Hi guys,

Well it's my birthday on Saturday and I just can't get into the spirit of it. I don't know if it's because I'm so busy with work which is a good thing ( it really is ) or I'm just not in the mood, probably the latter as I can't get fired up for Xmas although I am going away this year....

Yay!

I fly on boxing day and I'm due back on the 2nd I'm off out to Spain and I am so looking forward to it.

Well what's new with me?

I have been really struggling with my weight to the point where I lost over 2 stone and now I'm back where I started I was really struggling with binging on junk food it got so bad I sat down to eat two large bags of giant chocolate buttons a large bag of revels And three bags of sweets after a trip to McDonald's where I had consumed a large big mac meal a hamburger and a cheeseburger.

I think the only thing that's stopped me from keeling over is I have been swimming at least 4 times a week

I wish I knew why I have been binging, I don't and I have stopped cold turkey like I did with the smoking and caffeine but that hasn't answered my question?

What's new on the mentalist front well? I'm still mental it's getting so I'm getting better at managing it I know I have to eat well and sleep better and exercise and I'm getting bits of it right with baby steps.

Every baby step I make is a step in the right direction.

What I really need right now is some company I've tied a couple of dating sites and it's all slightly hit and miss and when do you admit to being a mentalist really!

Anyway I'm going to sleep soon which isa miracle this side of midnight 21:46 goodnight

P.s. follow me on twitter @leebrookes




- L out

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Why do I let it / her get to me

So, she used me spat me onto the pile like a disused rag and I wasn't even used in a good way.

Today I saw her I got completely and utterly ignored and well know I have deleted her from my phone and blocked her from the messenger we used to use!

Enough is enough.  I helped her in her time of need and what do I get pfft

sorry peeps rant over

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Location:Congleton,United Kingdom

Reflection & discipline

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it's been a weird week

So I've had a pretty ridiculous week this week, check back through this blog and you'll see a certain somebody keeps reappearing!!

Well she's made a reappearance in my life of recent times and I can't work out whether it's for the good or the bad :(

I'm not entirely sure she's good for me or team bipolar as it's been battering my head and stressing me out I'm not even sure how I feel.

I know how I feel about her I have very strong feelings for her I may even possibly go as far as to say I am struggling with the L word.

I have known her for 15 years she is ace, she is so funny, she is cute beautiful, sexy and I would so like her to be apart of my life but I don't think she knows what she wants ( all will become clear)

She has liked me for a while she tells me and yet like me she has her issues let's not go into those in full now maybe later and they aren't really for me to share

She has been in complicated relationship that she has been trying to end and I set her a bit of a gauntlet which I was amazed she took up to end it so she tried to end but he was having none !

This is were I turned dumb ass she asked me to get involved and to say something to his Wife ( I know!!! )

So I did ( I know!!! )

This has been going on for a week now I'm not sure if I have been used manipulated or been asked as a genuine friend

I hope she has asked me as a genuine friend if I have been used or abused I am going to be furious!!!

So I'm in a predicament now me and his wife are having quite an amicable conversation on Facebook and I so want to trust my friend I so really truly do

Oh so I am so wobbled up at the moment

I know she needs some space and she doesn't want me to put any pressure on her but I really just want to know when her heads clear whether there is room for me or not?

Too much?

L out

Anderton Boat Lift

I've been here this weekend

My first post from my iPhone :)

Well hello there readers what few of you have hung around while I have been on and off this blog.

I think the last time I posted mobile like this was when I posted from my palm I am quite excited :)

I'm no saying I'm will post anything interesting or even worth reading but I'll at least post

But for now





L out :)

Easy

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Hey you guys

Im spending more and more time on twitter right now Twitter which I think is the lazy reason for why I am not on here more but I am going to make an effort to get my arse over here when I can :)

for now Im off

L out