Well people thats it done for another 365 days Valentines day has been and gone......
Was it good for you ? I can't say it was exactly a bad day slightly unromantic but you know I wasn't really expecting much, after all you only get out what you put in don't you I can hardly say I made huge efforts yesterday!
I did bump into "B" while I was picking up a few essentials last night (Bread & Cat Food) We had quite a chat and it resolved a few issues in my head, strange to be able to come to such a major conclusion over such a short period of time you may think but it just jumped out at me!
She's right! There is no spark! There is no doubt whatso ever that I have feelings for "B" and I love her in one of its many incarnations but I didn't get it, oh actually wait up, hold on..... Actually I was walking down the aisle towards the till with my purchases and I spotted "B" at which point I shouted her (I should point out that I had my ipod on listening to Korn snd thus shouted quite loudly) she didn't hear so I whistled, again she didn't hear.....
So for some reason I walked to the first emptiest til I could see and then continued to watch and wait while my turn cam we checked out moments apart she started to walk off mere moments before me and I duly hot footed it to catch up with her and shouted her......
She heard me this time I asked her how she was (it was initially awkward) then I laughed an joked an had her smiling she does look cute when she smiles and giggles liek that! But I digress my point being when I was in the supermarket and trying to get her attention and trying to catch up with her I was nervous, anxious and my stomach had butterflies...... Yet when I finally catch her outside there was nothing there it was awkward, she laughed we joked and it was nice but there didn't seem to be anything there if anything she was trying to get away.....
Oh I don't know I sent her a text to which she didn't reply again......
Yes I know I should probably stop chasing I am making myself look slightly desperate maybe !
Ok no more chasing !
Its her turn!
She wants !
She is gonna have to come get!
I am frustrated because last time she got in touch the 'feelings' where brought up again and we had long chats and she rang me loads and we chatted about everything then it just stops......
I am a boredom filler aren't I (I am being used I think, and not in a bloody good way)
We shall have to see!
This cannot go on!
6 comments:
I'm sure you'll get some advice on this problem but I'm here to say that you need to do what you want to do. Some people say that we can learn from other people's mistakes but I find I prefer my own! Keep on Keeping on!
Michelle sent me.
It's great to reach some clarity on such a relationship related day. Good luck.
Sounds like a good plan to me. If she wants to get in touch then she will. This will also stop you feeling desperate!
Good luck with the B situation, whichever way it turns out.
Hi from Michele's.
I am a firm believer in the fact that things will work out exactly they way they should. Just sit back and enjoy the ride!
:)
Michele sent me. My first comment didn't work so I'll keep this brief. I think you should defintely cool it. Time for her to make the running.
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