Sunday, 31 December 2006

Here it Comes....... Like a rampant rhino !!!!

Well here it comes 2007 is on its way......


Friends have passed, friends will pass as is times way but march on we most and from this knowledge everyday forward and positive should be our endevour holding dear every memory as they create a montage to play later in life!

I'm looking forward to 2007 in every way possible and intend to try and make the best of every moment......

Things as they say can only get better and they are already looking up ;)

I have emailed "you" a few minutes ago just expressed my best wishes for the New Year and other such ramblings of an emotional fool who can't express himself.......

Here's hoping 2007 brings a conclusion or a plot to the non-existant story of me & "you"

I will try and drop into to Cyber closer to midnight to wish all my blogging friends and Readers a Happy New Year and best wishes for 2007 but should I not make it

Blessed Be

Friday, 29 December 2006

Update on the man cold......

Well I stayed in bed most of the day only venturing out for those provisions allowing me to continue my curling up in bed.......

Then just before 5 I decided I needed chocolate and ventured out for some fresh air. I bumped into my business partner he convinced me to go back to his and have some food as I was looking slightly peaky..... ;(

Then he brought me home we had a couple of cups of tea while he checked if I was capable of surviving being left on my own......

I am actually feeling a load better aided very much by the kind words I have recieved from the blogging community and various friends on MSN......

So with some Cyber Hugs and a cracking stir fry I think I am on way to loosing whatever virus had taken hold of me for the last three days ;)

I chatted to "you" on MSN earlier and that cheered me up no end, although we did briefly talk about her ex-boyfriend who isnt as convinced he is an ex as she is of it................. But long story another time maybe ;)

I'm still not entirely convinced what Im doing or what I'm going to do with regards to "you" but lets face it its filling space in the blogosphere and if thats not what I'm here to do what am I here for ;)

Well, I might have been over harsh on the man cold !

I woke up this morning an I could hardly move ;( Aching head, pains in my back and what I can only guess is a pack of rats trying to break out of my chest ! So i may have been just a little short on myself when I scolded myself for having a man cold, because what ever this is it bites !!!

So as you can imagine I'm not being all that productive today, but in my defense It hurts when I move ;(

I hope this shifts for New Year Eve I was looking forward to New Year's Eve.

I'm currently hungry an I want a cup of tea but I don't own a kettle and it hurts when I move ;(

I have lots of work to be doing and I feel really guilty for lying here typing this out but I can't properly concentrate anyway so I would have to go over anything I did so it would be a waste of time me doing it now ;)

Did I convince you cus I sure as hell didn't convince me ;(

I need to rally myself up and get myself sorted and do something productive, but it all hurts ;(

Thursday, 28 December 2006

An interesting day if a slight trawl ;)

So I slept really badly last night mainly cus I am suffering from a man cold (yes I am a typical male when it comes to colds ;) )

I managed to drag myself out of bed this morning at the last possible minute to go and meet with a potential client not in the mood at all, but within 15, 20 minutes of sitting with the client ( no longer potential now signed up ;) ) I had forgotten I was ill because the client had a fantastic idea and and really reeled me in so although by the time I got back to the office I was riding a fairly eurphoric wave which right now is losing its momentum but its been a good day ;) and even though we haven't reached 2007 yet its already looking good.

My head is in a fairly positive place I spoke to "you" today which was good and it was plainly obvious to my business partner and all around me that speaking to her cheered me up instantly ;)

I haven't actually directly told "you" yet and was actually thinking this morning that it might not be such a good idea to pursue anything but after talking to "you" I can't decide again now! We'll see.......

I still can't decide whether its a phase or whether these feelings are real ;)

I'm not gonna over think things because I am doing that with out thinking about it ;)

I talked to a someone who knows "you" about my feelings the other night and she asked me twice if it was "you" and I denied it and I really don't know why? I can't understand why I am so shy when it comes to real feelings when it comes to dealing with the opposite sex in general I never get shy or have any issues but for some reason when it comes to any kind of real emotion I seem to clam up and have great difficulty being honest ;)

Answers on an a e-card ;) !!!

Wednesday, 27 December 2006

Back to reality and back to some form of insanity ;)

Well its all over in the don't want to stretch it out sense I know a good percentage of people will still have the post christmas glow and to be fair I am still in awe of how good christmas was I actually had a really good time ;) I was kind of dreading it but its been really relaxing and quite good fun all in all so here comes 2007 and this I really am looking forward to New Years Eve I really enjoy for all the right reasons but I really beleiev 2007 is gonna be the springboard from to finish the gloom that has be 2006 for me so.....

Bring it on ;)

As for me I know I am in a really good mood and I am gonna work stoically to keep it that way well into the build up and hopefully the new year.

I have in the back end of this year made some great friends and I hope to forge those relationships into the new year and hopefully make more so here's to fresh starts and great friends ;)

Monday, 25 December 2006

Festive Greetings People

It's been an interesting day

Not being much of a theist; this is best attempt at a "christmas" card.

Please accept with no obligation, expressed or implicit, my best wishes for an environmentally conscious, socially responsible, low stress, non-addictive, gender neutral celebration of the winter solstice holiday, practiced with the most enjoyable traditions of religious persuasion or secular practices of your choice with respect for the religious/secular persuasions and/or traditions of others, or their choice not to practice religious or secular traditions at all.

I also wish you a fiscally successful, personally fulfilling and medically uncomplicated recognition of the onset of the generally accepted calendar year 2007, but not without due respect for the calendars of choice of other cultures whose contributions to society have helped make our country great (not to imply that Great Britain is necessarily greater than any other country) and without regard to the race, creed, colour, age, physical ability, religious faith or sexual preference of the wishee.

By accepting this greeting, you are accepting the following terms:

This greeting is subject to clarification or withdrawal at any time by the wisher.
It is freely transferable with no alteration to the original greeting.
It implies no promise by the wisher to actually implement any of the wishes for him/her or others, and is void where prohibited by law, and is revocable at the sole discretion of the wisher.
This wish is warranted to perform as expected within the usual application of good tidings for a period of one year or until the issuance of a subsequent holiday greeting, whichever comes first.
This warranty is limited to the replacement of this wish or issuance of a new wish at the sole discretion of the wisher.

Best holiday Regards,

Sunday, 24 December 2006

OK Its building to a frenzy

I'm backing myself into a corner again ;( It's all going to either end in tears or I will sort it last minute ;) Why do I always do this to myself ?

No I have no idea either?

Oh well ;)

I have actually had a good night I had a friend round tonight, I cooked for us both we consumed two bottles of red then went to the pub and I have just got in ;) Very good night indeed ;) I understand that I am just postponing the inevitable but time is a great healer lol so we shall see!

Anyone reading the whole blog will note that I am missing "you" heavily and can't contact her which isn't good but I'm sure i will cope somehow ?

The real humour (dark as it is, is that "you" doesnt know I exist :( )

Its christmas eve I am working in a few hours an my plans are bleak ;) but one way or another we will prevail ;)

I had a conversation with my Father today where I told him I wouldn't be dining with him and my mother for christmas day (they are divorced, long story) but he didn't seem to take it to well and I asked him to go and enjoy himself for me but he seemed not too convinced by my reasoning and wants but we shall see?

Saturday, 23 December 2006

Time & My cats ;)

Hey people ;)

I have come home to my cats tonight after a christmas drink with my work colleagues and unusually they are not as wary as usual when I have had a drink they are normally like hey he's drunk he may fall lets avoid him tonight they have been quite receptive :)

So I havent had enough to drink ;) Or they are feeling sorry for me ;)

I have sent a text that maybe I shouldn't and I'm tired ;) So I apologise for this being short but its nearly christmas and I maybe drunk ;)

So for now goodnight people !

Thursday, 21 December 2006

Time, Space & Thoughts ?

I have been doing way to much thinking of late !

Thinking about things I don't really need to and probably worrying about things I don't really need to but not necessarily worrying about the things that I should :(

I have also been alot more confident in some instances with my emotional front and not confident enough in others ;)

as you can tell I'm not exactly helping myself work on a level playing field here am I !

Well one step at a time, I am after all only human ;)

its Christmas day in 4 days and I am avoiding it and trying to pretend its not there but its really not working its coming whether I like it or not! Now don't get me wrong its not that I don't like christmas its just that this year I am alone, In the U.K. long story and struggling with things so its not the best really but I am sure I will cope one way or another ;)

Right now I need friends around me but christmas is not really the time to be asking people to be giving up families just because I can't face mine ;(

One way or another things will work out I'm sure and so onwards and upwards we travel !


Your being entices me
Your intellect excites me

Everything about you sets me on fire

Being around you makes everything right

My worries dissapate
My humour reignites

Everything is suddenly a sparkle in the night

Time seperates
consciencousness joins

If its not meant to be just knowing you was enough

Tuesday, 19 December 2006

Its Been a while but im back ;)

Well hello world :)

I haven't posted in such a long time, an I remembered three days ago when I was experiencing Myspace for the first time how ( yes *hangs head in shame* I was a myspace virgin) easy it was to post to blogger and thus decided to sign back up to blogger and begin my random blurbs to blogger again ;)

So whats happened in the time I have been gone?

Well where to start?

I have had some what of a dark and interesting 18 months I can tell you that for nothing ;) At times it has been dark and desolate but on reflection I don't think I would change it for the world. Not that I would wish what I have been through on my worst enemy but it really has taught me some things about myself!

I have in the last 18 months made friends lost friends experienced some interesting things and also experienced some interesting people. I have moved twice in 18 months unfortunately I have been single for the last 18 months as well ;( I think this may well have had something to do with the dark places I have been in for the last 18 months.

As dire and dismal and depressing as that reads it is a lot more positive than it leads to believe I assure you :) I still have may dark days but then again so does the whole human race so finally I may be nearing normality lol !

What I do know is through all the interesting times I have been through in the last 18 months the light is finally becoming truly visible at the end of the tunnel I have real friends around me I have a female who although not necessarily a love interest she is one of the best things to have happened to me in a long time and that will no doubt lead to some interesting times ;)

So that is a brief round up of my absence and over the next few weeks Im sure more will come to light but for now Ill say my good byes