Oooohh ahhh how are we Doin ?

I have had an interesting weekend all round I have read some interesting research work I have watched some films I have relaxed and I worked hard and I am actually looking forward to Monday ;) Which I haven't done in a long time.....

"You" Informed this weekend she has 'pulled' a rugby player 26 semi professional hot wel built and earning well so that is that chapter over and done with for now.....

I am looking at it in a positive light the whole thing never really took off and it wasn't sure where it was going so maybe it is nature taking its own sweet course who knows and who dares to question why....?

Well actually ME !

She did inform me that she would be bringing my books round this weekend and hasn't shown up and she took great pleasure in telling me abou the rugb y player in front of my friend who said he personally thought it stunk of her trying to make me jealous.....

Ah we shall see after finishing this I think I shall send a text or Two.....

Oh and don't forget if your a member of Myspace pop over even if you don't add me say hello I am researching the whole social networking phenomenon at the moment Blogging Bebo Frapper Flickr MSN just to name a few and I am interested to see who is involved

;)

Well what a week

This week has been interesting if not for the fact that I have not seen it go! It has just trail blazed past me and its saturday night again before I realise it we are well into 2007 and December is 10 months away.....

Well the year is looking up as expected and I am happy at what it is likely to bring and what I am going to achieve I am over the moon at the friends I have made along the way ;)

My love life, well what there is of it is as complicated as ever and I don't think I help myself out there but hey it adds to the rollercoaster that is my life ;)

I need to spend more time with my family and tell them I love them and appreciate them more than I do but I'm sure I will work on that more this year than I have ever done because I really do feel that I have learnt from past mistakes ;)

Whoooa time delay...... (no not really jus no Internet)

Well I've been away for 5 days its been like losing an arm ;( I haven't had Internet access for five days other than in the office an I have just been to busy to blog....

No you say too busy to blog, !

I wouldn't have believed it either unless I had just been through it myself but I am back again now.....

I should note busy is good really good I love the thrive and energy that being busy brings me I have missed pouring my mind out on my blog though an I am gonna try an catch up with the week ;)

I have started reading a really good book (in my opinion of course) Sabriel by Garth Nix a bit of sci-fi ish fantasy to take the mind away I find never hurts ;)

I havent had as much contact from "you" or "B" this week but there has been some, actually I text "B" three times yesterday and have yet to receive a response I had a text conversation with "You" last night about some books she has borrowed from me and she has offered to return them some time this weekend which is good because I need one of them for some research I am doing at the moment ;)

I am feeling a lot more positive about the state of my love life (or lack of it lol) of late and am a lot happier taking things easier and letting be what will be but putting the effort in, in all the right places without coming across as needy. Which is very much how I was coming across before......

I have been enjoying the weather over here in blighty the past couple of days, don't get me wrong its been cold....... an I mean brrrrrr cold but the sun has been shining and its been glorious, its muggy and drizzling today but I will not let it take the edge off my mood ;)

So I'm off to visit some blog friends and say Hello to Michele now I may be back later ;)

Is it too late for a new years resolution?

I think I need to start taking my own advice and Listening to others ;)

Texting, email, ringing after having a drink is BAD.....

I havent had repurcussions yet and I might not even get them but maybe I could have handled the situation better ????

I do think though after listening to some of you guys awesome advice and thinking about things in a more sensible frame of mind I have come to some conclusions

1) I have been in love with "B" and I do love her but I don't think at this moment in time I am in love with her

2) I am lonely and need to make sure I dont make a decsision purely because of that

3) I have made some great friends via Blogger and they have given me some awesome advice ;)

Thank you all

This is probably not the right tact but I've had a drink an emailed "B" this

I stepped up behind you in the club knowingly aware that you hadn’t seen me, placing both my hand around your waist I embraced you cupping your body in mine I leant forward to allow you to feel my breath on your neck my heart beat against your back…..

Startled but aware that the presence is a welcome one you lean into me I kiss your neck lightly but with a force of promise of events to come I sway with the music our bodies become one with the beat I trace your neck shoulders and back with my lips and tongue lightly yet with presence to alight the nerve endings yet tease and suggest….

My fingertips find flesh under cloth unseen by roaming eyes I trace the contours of your silhouette in my mind and by touch abating the urge the need building in the moment knowing the culmination will out way the crescendo of the persistence of the moment

tired ;( It's been a long week

Ok people, as stated above I'm tired, I found out why "B" was suffering from anxiety we had a long, long chat and got a few things out in the open ;)

She has been subscribed some medication which I am a little wary about as she has quite an addictive personality but she assures me as stated by her doc that she is only taking them when she has need so thats re assuring ;)

I am a little more settled in the whole thing and have decided that I/we need to take time to get to know each other again before we can move anywhere never mind into a relationship and that feels right...

because with the right amount of effort and consideration if its meant to be and we both want it for the right reasons what is meant to be will be ;)

I haven't discounted my feelings for "you" completely but am certainly coming to terms with the fact that maybe on that part I was more enjoying the attention than interested in long term commitment from "you"

Although I should state she is a wonderful human being, very intelligent aware and worth a measure of anyones company time or effort but for all the right reasons I just don't think we are right for one another....


On a return to the last post I am still interested to hear how many of you all have myspace accounts and the reasons why if you are willing to share ;) please comment on that post as well as saying hello here ;)

Remember no lurking ;)

Questions for a change ;)

Hey everyone I have a question ;)

I am currently researching social networking and its positive influence on tweens, teens and young adults. You know myspace, bebo, faceparty etc.....

An I was wondering how many bloggers had a Myspace Account I have one I have created one to build a hands on knowledge of the community and how it works and was wondering how many of you guys also used it?

I see blogger or blogging as an extension of the social networking community if portrayed and used with a slightly different persona....

I was sitting here reading some of my research and thought I'd ask

I'm gonna add my myspace profile to my links any of you guys wanna go look feel free ;)