Where is forward an who has the compass to this minefield

Whoa hold up....

" Emotional minefield ahead "

Why is there not a sign that says that somewhere when you get into anything that may or may nto involve feelings, relationships or anything other than just friends!

Now I'm not complaining at all, its just I can complicate things in my head in my own special way and don't need help doing so ;)

(for even the slightest inkling of what I'm blabbering about see previous posts)

So we had spoken all through the night on the phone she had gone straight to work, I had managed to squeeze in two hours sleep and we had got to the end of the day both with varying degrees of success ;)

A good friend of hers at work had noticed something was amiss she (from here on in B) had told her about our all night phone conversation (which i'm not sure didn't irk me but for what reason I am lost to other than I would have liked her to talk to me but understandably B needed an objective viewpoint ) The friend had some very positive things to say and some objective points to put across which got B to thinking well if we have had these feelings for all this time (11 Years we only recently realised it was mutual but are now struggling to work out if they are still as strong or phantom remnants of passions for memories of each other) Then is it a good idea to pursue and why have nt we acted on it the friend seems to think there is a piece of the puzzle missing, we are both perplexed!

This obviously got B thinking I mean we are both tired long night ! I enjoyed it and it really did clear some air but after the talk with the friend it has us both thinking which I'm never sure is a good thing she is erring towards all or nothing to test its strength where as I know she has used this method in the past to put a cap on a situation that she wasn't sure was meant to be and after so long I am not sure I am willing to risk pushing it to a conclusion to see if that is the answer I want to know I so want to know but I also don't want to lose what little thread of her I have !

Is this even making sense ?

I haven't uttered these thought s to anyone some of them not even to her which makes me feel somewhat guilty but I need to read them to make sense of them because in my head they are purely chatter !

I think I want to say HELP

Is she here to stay Sorry this is a bit risque compared to the norm ;) *blush*

Ok as stated in my previous blog I had an all night conversation with an old friend who I/we have exchanged knowledge that we have/had did/do still have some very deep feelings for each other we spent all night talking about pretty much everything.

We discussed the situation we/her/us decided that although the last time we discussed this it was a no go and would lead to nothing we/her/us had been rash in our decision as we both have very strong feelings for each other and what we should actually do is not bury the feelings away in a black box (akin to pandora's, long story if anyone wants to know I will tell them) but leave them out in the open and shoud the situation arise, make itself obvious or there be a need act upon those emotions but all in all be honest with each other, totally honest which we are actually she is one of few people if not the only person that I am totally honest with......

(erm well she doesn't know about NMI but it hasn't come up..... ;) )

Now if your confused don't worry about it I was at first I may still be I'm not entirely sure but we ended the conversation with her showering at me (don't ask, but im sure your not supposed to use the phone on hands free while your in the shower ;), I d didnt complain) An I wrote her some passages of text which although I may do at some time I can't at the moment because its before the watershed......

I'm not entirely sure where I stand or what's going on but even with two hours sleep I have been smiling all day ;)

Where's my head at?

Oh what the F ;o

I had a text message of a friend tonight (female) I openly admitted to having feelings for about three months or so ago and things got a little complicated when she said she had feelings back and then she wasn't sure an then we cried an then she decided we needed some space and we didnt talk for a while only occasionally via text (yes sometimes when I was intoxicated )

Then she rang and we talked and are still talking an its 6:26am She has to go to work and I am going to sleep ;)

I'll tell you more about this later