Sunday, 25 November 2007

Friends New & Old


 

Since having my shiny new Blackberry I have found I am generally a little more connected, well ok I am permanently connected but this has led to me staying in touch with people a little more and forgetting to contact them back a little less.

This in turn has led to me becoming a little more organised which has helped with the P&C and I know need to starting treating it seriously myself, because *blushes I may not have been treating it with the seriousness it deserves...


 

I mean I have a psychiatrist on standby they have me on 1000mg of a fairly strong drug and they are weaning me up to 1750mg and I really am being a little flippant about it, but In a sense I ahve to be to be able to deal with it. I ahve this for life permanently it aint buggering off no time soon so whether they are offering me social to help me or telling me how I have to behave I think I will take what they offer give it due and fair consideration then deal with it accordingly the meds are working brilliantly and I am being careful with them maybe I haven't totally stopped drinking like they told me to I ahve to an extent stopped smoking I only tend to smoke when I am drunk now which isn't very often at all but this illness and my addictive nature mean fighting drinking is a real arse, don't get me wrong I am down to once a week if that and then last night I had two pints and three glasses of wine over a meal and over four hours but it still doesn't help and I have learnt to spot it, my Dr says I am lucky that I am so intuitive when it comes to P&C personally sometimes it just gives me reason to beat myself up....


 

On a more upbeat note I have started to make a hard copy back up of my music collection which stands at 1068 albums and 936 artists because other than the hard drive they sit on I have no copy, and yes people they are all legal, I told you this P&C thing and me have an addictive nature I'm the same with books....

Where was I, oh yeah hard copy of music I am burning a copy of each album off using Itunes which I have to really shout the praise of Apple for making this such an easy to use facility..


 

Ok Im done jabbering now


 

L out

3 comments:

Isadora said...

Glad to hear that you are taking things in stride and dealing with meds and life simultaneously. No small feat! You probably already know this, but there is no harm in hearing it again - alcohol has a nasty affect with the alcohol - so that may just be another way you've found to 'beat yourself up'? Watch that, there is no need - the world is far too happy to beat you up, don't give them a hand. :) Take care of you.

Blond Girl said...

Hey... Michele sent me. Congratulations on your journey of discovering your self and learning to support instead of beating yourself up.

Oh, and love the blackberry! I wish I had one - I am so jealous!

Carmi said...

As I write this, my BlackBerry 8830 sits next to my laptop, its LED glowing red to indicate a new message. I think my addiction is pretty permanent now, as I can't imagine what I'd do if I didn't have it.

From ensuring I don't get lost to letting me keep things moving forward with clients while I'm donating blood, it's a godsend for the kind of work that I do.

I am deeply impressed with how you're managing yourself between docs, drugs and life. I doubt I'd have the strength.