I think your reading this

This will only make sense to one person so I apologise to the rest of you!

I had a visit on Friday at my current office from the company you have most recently employed I impressed you must have looked under a pretty scabby rock for them...

None the less I reported them to the OFT for ALL of the breaches of their regularity guidelines and I wont be seeing them again!

So.....

NEXT!

Or why don't you give up cus your being completely ridiculous with the information fairy tales are you into now?

Good luck

New member of the Brookes House hold

We have a new member of the Brookes House hold "Holly"

My biz partners mother in law found a cat who had recently given birth with her Kittens in her garden. I was hence forth convinced to adopt the mommy ("Holly")

She arrived fresh from the Vets yesterday after having her 'op' (poor madam)

We made her comfortable in my library with her own 'blankie' her own litter and her own food and water and left her to her own devices to calm down.

I went to check on her a few hours later and she had dissapeared !!!

The cupboard door was open so obviously she was in the cupboard I went to look and oh dear I had forgotten the floorboards are up because of the dodgy heating issue.

So I spent a couple of hours trying to coax her out. She wouldn't come out so I left her be.

I woke up this am at 6 went in to check on her she had been out knocked some things of the shelves eaten some food and use her litter tray so I freshened everything up and again left her to it.

I'm just glad she is ok. Piece by piece I'm sure she will come out and settle down. But for now we really do have a new cat in the "house"

L out
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New blog

I have moved to a new blog peeps, a number of reasons. Moving to establish a new subject matter and lose some of my old followers.

So anyone interested come on over

http://bipolarbearexpress.co.uk

Its possibly going to be a bumpy ride but almost everyone is welcome
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Day so far

I went to a breakfast networking meeting this morning which went well and my mood was up generally good vibe from those meetings -

I got back to the office and my biz partner is a in a shit with me still which I can hardly blame her for as I was a total arse yesterday but her and our sales guy Mike leave on a meeting and the air is tense.

I proceed to over think all afternoon and I am thus confused and irritable

They get back from the meeting and things are calmer and slightly less chilly she calls me an arse tells me she still wants to stab me and things calm a little

She tells me she can't flip her moods like me which is fair enough as she doesn't have my mood disorder and things ease some more.

She leaves on a light note - I think we still have a business
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I'm not sure what to do

What to say here ?

I've been having some really good days recently, my moods have been really settled and and the bad side when I have dropped back off I have been dropping so low its been horrific!

I don't don't whether my moods have actually got low or whether because my moods have settled now when the do cycle it seems so bad?

When I am having a bad day my head feels full of cotton wool, I am irritable for no reason and I don't know why?

I would love to know why or how?

I think I am going to have to sort my eating out I have been eating crap again, also I haven't excersiced in too long.

I have really upset my business partner and myself today and I just couldn't control him. The problem is getting people to understand!

I was really quite ill a few days ago and I think what with the extra weight I have piled on the lack of excersice the excess stress I have been under maybe I have snapped again!!!

It just feels so dark and I feel so alone

Help
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Bad day..... Real shite day actually!!!

Its been bad,

Mr Hyde is trying to get out

Too much caffienne, too much everything

Too much.............

Shaking, spiralling, alone, here he comes an the darkness surrounds
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I might stay put

I have been giving some thought to moving blogs or setting up a new blog recently.

Why? You ask?

Well my past began to catch up with me, from before I was diagnosed with the bipolar! I have done some shameful things in my past and Im as guilty of them now as I was then. I have apologised to alot of people for some of the things, in fact scratch that almost all of the things I did I have apologised for and yet people still don't get that I am only half and half when I have an episode whether it be a an up episode or a down episode.

I could try explaining bipolar but there are so many different definitions and explainations and forum arguements I'll just google it for you

Anyway, I decided not to move I decided just to stick put moderate my posts and enjoy my blog.

In news, I have been in my new place for 5 weeks now and its really, really homely.

Im starting to get a little bored with being single now, Its been 4 Years and 4 Months now and although I have never really dated in my life I am thinking it might be time to start.

Me and my new business partner are joining the local Gym on the 1st of October in a joint effort to lose weight so mybe that will boost my efforts and my self confidence and hopefully help my social life.....

I took my new business partner and her husband out for a meal on friday and it was a fantastic meal and it was nice to do something socialable and 'adult' which is something I havent really done much of in the past 4 years

Anyway CSI is on now so im off

Be well

L Out